I’ve gone inward. This is hard. Last Friday was the last day of chemo and it should have felt as much a celebration as it sounded but it just wasn’t. I didn’t feel well. The weekend was exhausting. We ended up calling the doctors Sunday about pain and got something ‘extra’ til we could get in Monday. Worked very well FYI. Communication is key. So knowing this is my last week of radiation, my last week of treatment, it should feel like a celebration right? Except I don’t feel well. My skin is in rough rough shape. I am staying up on pain meds though but it’s a ton of management. Even after my last radiation day Friday I will still come in to Dr E (rad) for daily skin care for another 2 weeks or so. Then I see Dr Thomas (onc) in 2 weeks and get rescanned in maybe 6 weeks or so. The colorectal surgeon will see me after those scans for another scope (he diagnosed me in the beginning) and he will be the person who decides based on all the facts if I am ‘done’. So you can see there’s a lot of moving parts to this even after Friday. I will celebrate Friday somehow because this is major! I just may not feel very well doing it 🤷♀️. That’s ok. This week has been tougher than we anticipated. It’s taking every ounce of energy I have which is put towards healing, eating protein, and just getting through each day that I needed to let the tribe blog sit idle.